Lynnnnn

2012-02-12T13:35:00.002+08:00

freaky teddy bear in the corner HAHAHAHAHAHA wtf

I love Josh Hutcherson. omggggomgomgomg.
My new wallpaper! ;)
And omg I'm gonna hand in my phone for warranty again.
I'll have to wait for another few days or so and I'll be using my Sony K810i :'( ahhh
Byebye pretty touch screen and whatsapp :'(

x

2012-02-12T00:31:00.001+08:00

I finished the second book of the hunger games trilogy! Ahh I feel so happy.

My hip is healing! ON ITS OWN! Hallelujahhh

Unspoken words mannnnn.

2012-02-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

I'd be posting up a longer entry if I was on the computer, but I'm too repelled by the thought of sitting through endless lags. It can be so frustratinggggg . Anyway, I'm home alone and I'm trying to finish up Catching fire, the hunger games part 2! ;) my aim is to finish it by tonight heheh :)

I'm so sleeeepy. I slept around 145 in the morning yesterday because I took a nap after coming back from school :( biggest mistake ever! HAHHA

I want that navy blue anchor tank from Topshop ! AHHHHHH.

Never give up on something that you cant go a day without thinking about. Really ?

2012-02-10T21:07:00.003+08:00

:( guess what?! My hip problem is back. It hurts whenever I stand and whenever I walk. I'll have to visit that acupuncturist again :( exact same thing back from form2 :( i remember how i used to go on msn with my mom's bb during an acupuncture session HAHAH whyyyy like thattttt.

2012-02-08T22:48:00.006+08:00

Stupid unnecessary night depressions :(

Finished 3/4 of my bio paper! I feel so proud of myself! The remaining questions about pods, placentas and why there's progesterone in milk is driving me crazyyyyyy. Tried googling it but failed HAHAHAHA. I am now stuck with my English essay! Rewriting it from page 3 :( Sien ahhhh.funny how I'm looking forward for hiphop! It's actually quite fun HAHAHAH.

Anyway! I feel so sleep deprived :( I currently am yawning as if ive not yawned in the past 16 years of my life. My god. TEARS STREAMING DOWN MY FACE HAHAHAHAH LITERALLY. I know I should be sleeping earlier because I've been waking up at 6 almost every morning to follow momma and papa over to the running track but i've got work to doooooo. And I want to read :Y I just finished the Hunger Games! And it's amazinggggg <3

Stop hoping please. It's of no use and you'll just get butt hurt over little things.Yuckkkkk. Haheio to the max.

2012-02-08T19:43:00.001+08:00

Part of me knows it's futile :/ There's no going back :(

Choices and consequences. I respect your decision, I do, so so much but I'm DYINGGGGGGG.

2012-02-07T21:24:00.004+08:00

Ahh it has been the longest four days of my lifeee! Busy to the max! HAHAHA

Anyway, I headed over to pavilion this morning and went shopping! Hehehe I'm so happy with my purchases (Y) Three new tops and a red skirt! The red skirt is amazingly adorable i tell you :P Plus there was this dress in toshop that caught my eye but my mom said it was a bit too flimsy with holes here and there :'( sigh. After that, I headed over to eeyong's place for a gambling session! HAHAHA My nett gain aint bad :P Quite ong la this few days yayyyy :) I followed Limin back to Canal Gardens and headed over to Alicia's house to bai nian! My parents were already there so we sat and talked for a bit. We had to leave after 20 minutes or so because we had to head over to Klang to send my granny to my aunt's! HAHAHA And now, I've finally had dinner and I'm home! Busy, huh?

Other than that, SHOULD I TRY?
I've been making up conversations in my head a lot recently and it's funny how I can actualllllly feel better just by doing that.

x
Oh by the way, I wanna know, who in the world reads my blog?

2012-02-06T14:54:00.003+08:00

No longer heading down to kl today :( dad said it would be too tiring to go down and head straight to Cheras. I don't blame him. I'm feeeeeling so lethargic today. I'm just spending my day on my bed reading the hunger games! Amazing book, by the way! When I read about Peeta, I can't help but think of him as josh hutcherson, can't wait for the movie!

The thought of it just drives tears to my eyes. No joke man :( I want to talk, I really do but what's the point? It won't change anything.

Man who would even want someone who depends so much on others.

My confidant is long gone :(

I confide to no one but myself.

2012-02-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

Amazing day! AHHH had an open house today and everyone just went home! OMGGG had amazing nasi lemak and rendang chicken :B gambled into the night and haaahahhaha 财源滚滚来 man HAHAHAHA amazing :))) damn ong!

Anyway! Heading over to the temple first thing in the morning and imma be going for bio tuition :( after that, I might be heading down to kl to jalannnjalannn. At night, we'd be heading over to my uncle's house in Cheras for dinner. Whoa baby such an eventful day!

CAN I TELL YOU SOMETHING? It'll be awkward man shit.

2012-02-05T18:42:00.002+08:00

Kind people have a way of working their way inside me and rooting there. And damnnnnn are you roots deep or whattttt. I think you're gonna be rooted there for eternityyyyyy :( damnnn.

It's so strange. Bruhhhh.

2012-02-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

Ah. Another long weekend :( it's like we're having holidays 247 Wei HAHAHAHA

Heheh I got my cert saying I passed ma grade 5 fundamentals today yayyyy! Celebrated and had dinner over at rakuzen! Mmmm soft shell crab :) anyway, I want to go shopping! I wanna go look for my studs :( one of my chatuchak studs broke! Omg :( I was so sad HAHHA other than that, I also wanna go hunting for those amazingly cute wrap around sandals! The ones with flowers are mad cute! 😁

Tomorrow's gonna be a longggg day! Swimming class at 10, then imma head over to one utama to get my three books :P after all that, then we're gonna head home to start getting ready for the party! All of my relatives are gonna come over :) omagahh can't wait to gamble !

Nmnmnmnm I wannnna talk!

2012-02-04T08:10:00.002+08:00

Had the weirdest yet most amazing dream everrrrr.

Why can't reality be that way?!

Funny how I can just break down like that, I'm emotional and sensitive and it's just in me :/

NONG.

2012-02-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

I'm such an asshole!:( AHHHHHHH

It's been 391849493938392 years since i've cried myself to sleep. So why?!

I'm dead tired and I can't sleep.

I'm a horrible person with no heart at all man :( stab stab stabbbbbb.

I can't keep bottling everything uppp.

2012-02-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

Eminem is my savior omg.

2012-02-02T21:05:00.003+08:00

During Chinese Classsssss! We so cutttttte omgggg.

Anyway, I was blowing my hair this morning and then i started to thinkkkkk. I remembered a note that was squished through my locker about a year agooooo. I didn't remember seeing it while I cleaned my drawer of cards last December, so I sorta panicked and went into my room to look for it HAHAHA Omg mind my englishhh thankyouuu. I looked high and low for it and finally found it in the corner! Read it and felt sadddd all over again. Ahhhh I want my cookies and cream and I want more notessssssss :/

Howwwwwww.
I like stripes leh. I like that dirty green colour :(
AND THAT RUFFFFFFLEEEEEEEDD PICCTURRRRRE.

Omg. I just had my dinner. I had 501523952359235 cookies before that and I feel as if I'm about to explode with FATS. YAYYY!

x

2012-02-02T07:27:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhhha. It's 7.26 in the morninng and i feel so accomplished! Headed over to mpsj at 630 and did 10 rounds! MET MY GOAL ! YESSSSSSS! loveydoveydovey! x

2012-01-31T20:27:00.004+08:00

Booooooooomshakala

The results of the students who took IGCSE last year are out! omaaaagad stressssss leh. I want to get 9A*'s too :'( And i willllll man. I willlll!Photostated last year's form5 Test 1 papers and Imma start trying them out likeabawwws (Y)

Why it's different:1.I say things I don't mean, which sucks. And I'm sorry :/

2. I can't speak my mind because you can be so god damn sensitive at times.

FLUSHHHHHHH.

I know I can't ever get that again but pleaassseee tell me why.
A girl has the right to know why :'(
NONG?

I thought I was okay. Ew!:(
Oh so very painful :(

x

Update; oh god .i just remembered how i died exactly 2 years ago on the 31st of january.

:( HAHAH it doesn't really matter anymore but, it's still a date to remember! Stupid message.

2012-01-29T11:28:00.000+08:00

You know it'll always be youuuuuuu

2012-01-28T23:55:00.003+08:00

IN THE MOURNING I'LL RISE,

IN THE MOURNING I'LL LET YOU DIE,

IN THE MOURNING ALL MY SORRY'S.

It's okay.

HAHAHAHH

It'll be the same! Don't worry, be happppy.

Nananananananna.

Ju qi shou, CHANG LA LA LA LA HAHAHHA

2012-01-27T13:48:00.003+08:00

I wanna boom bang bang .

The oppressive heat is killing me! I wanna go bai nian :(
And ewww, February is on its way. it's gonna be a bad month.
No more why not's and stuffing plastic bags. AHHHHHHH.

x

2012-01-26T12:04:00.000+08:00

I miss last year. eeeeeeeewwwwwwww.

2012-01-25T22:43:00.004+08:00

haaaaaheio.
this is an old photo, I just needed to post it for the time being.
PIKU!

I'm back from Johor! I didn't know traveling can be exhausting HAHAHA I'm too lazy to update about my chinese new year, maybe another day :P I shall just update about my how I'm feeling HAHA

I know nothing's supposed to be bothering me already but truth be told, it still is :( I've been keeping a lot to myself lately. And honestly, I can't even phrase proper sentences at the moment. I'm currently sitting on a chair in front of the computer, TRYING to put my thoughts into words but yeah ;/ Whenever I go to sleep, I'll try my best to just shut off immediately to prevent myself from over thinking. Whenever I think of something that last happened or what not, I think of dates and I think about the times where there were no barriers.
I have no idea what I'm talking about. HAAAAHAH. oh god please help me.

I don't wanna cry anymore, but old dreams die hard :/

Anyway, listen to In the Mourning by Paramore! Amazing songggggg (Y)

2012-01-24T19:16:00.004+08:00

It's not wrong to want to share, and it's not wrong either to just want someone to be there to listen :(

However, what's the point of listening if you're just going to judge others?

Every part of me is aching just with the thought of it :(

I want to sharrreeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Mannnn I'm not asking for much :/

Heck, I don't even deserve it.

2012-01-23T13:50:00.002+08:00

GONG XI FA CAI!

Piupiupiupiu. It's the first day of Chinese new year yayyy! Everyone's in red :P

Had mi sua in the morning and now nasi dagang for lunch omg good food everyday ! Fats on the way HAHAHAHAHHA

Leaving for kb at around 615 in the evening and we'd be heading down to Johor tomorrow morning! Ahhh dreading the drive down already :/

Compresss them feelings HAHAHA it's all gooood.

2012-01-21T06:56:00.004+08:00

Helllllo! I'm already back in kelantan ;) but I'm not having the cny feeeel yet :( went home after lunch from school yesterday to take a flight here alone :P it was scary yet fun and it was definitely a new experience! Reached kota bharu and was greeted by both my parents. We headed straight to kk for a barbecue at my second uncle's house. Loads of my relatives were thereee and omg we had such gooood food!

But guess what, with all the barbecued meat and the tiny mandarin oranges I had yesterday, I woke up with a horrible sore throat :( and the room was so cold last night , I was under TWO blankets! Brrrrr. Now I think I'm starting to catch a fevahhhhh noooooooo. Such nice timing huhhh :(

It's currently 7 in the morning and I can't sleep because I fell asleep too early last night, I was so tired! And right now alllllllllll I'm thinking bout is how much I'd like to just go back in time. But I know I can't and it's just so damn unfair >:( I'm such an asshole :/

I hate those moments right before you go to sleep, when you are forced to think about all the things you tried so hard to forget. You didn't believe meeeee :/

Updated.

Sometimes I'm like ahhhh screw it, but sometimes I just die a little inside just thinking bout it :(

Closureeeeeeeeeeee. Relevant reason, where are you?

2012-01-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

People change and these things happen.

2012-01-19T21:54:00.002+08:00

Came over to Limin's house to bake pineapple tarts yo :Y so buttery oh so fun. HAHAHAAH

I am now currently sitting on Yaplimin's horrible bouncy chair that does not allow me to even CROSS MY LEGS. because it would just swallow up my feet like a hungry dinosaur. Brought umpteen number of bags to school today because I'm sleeping over at Limin's tonight! Went over to Bukit Tinggi for the VERY first time :Y Not bad mans. After that, we went over to her dad's favourite restaurant. PAISEH MANSSSS. Her cousin actually calls me the usj11 girl. wow.

I don't wanna share no more :(

2012-01-17T22:49:00.001+08:00

Please don't be in love with someone else, please don't have somebody waiting on youuuuuu. Ahh I'm addicted to this song :( I found myself humming to the tune while I was doing trigonometric functions, oh horrible add math chapter! Memorize here memorize there :( sigh HAHA.

I'm not feeling too well nowadays :( I've been nomming on too many little mandarin oranges :( my throat feels like sand paper HAHAHAHAH.

Can't wait to head over to Limin's tomorrow to make pineapple tarts yay!:p

I was enchanted to meeeet youuuu. I miss you ohmaigadddd :/ I miss sharing!

2012-01-16T22:03:00.004+08:00

badabingbadaboooo.

AHHH. it's gonna be a good good year! I passed my Yamaha grade 5 fundamentals! i feel like an angel. HAHAHAHA i feel so happpy. nomnomnom.

I still have my moments though :/ I think of sadsad stuff quite often but what to do. oh god.

But anyway! Amaaagad Imma be sitting on an aeroplane back to my hometown on Friday and guess what, I'll be heading there ALONE. I didn't want to skip school, therefore I chose to stay back another two days :( On the bright side, Chinese New Year is coming up and I feel so chinese-y :Y I still remember how I converted all Two and A Half Men series last year so I could watch them back in my hometown :/

Fcccccccck just TWO minutes ago, I was in such a good mood and my parents had to make stupid unnecessary comments. All they wanna do is to skype with my brother. My mom even shoo-ed me away from the hall and asked me to go stay in my room. Whaaat is up. I mean, I don't mind you skyping with my brother, but to blatantly tell me in the face that you don't want me around, that's just low :/ and the way you just seem to light up once the call is connected, I'll never be able to be the cause of that, would I? :/ sorrrrry. I'll always be irritating or in the way of everything :/

I feel so worthlessssssssssss. I'd rather be a car now. I wanna share :'( earrrrrrs :(

x

Updateddd, addicted to enchanted by Taylor swift and one thin by one direction :Y

Noone would know how I feel because I'd rather keep everything to myself and not share even though I know I want to. It's just too scary :(

2012-01-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

I've got four new dresses hanging in my wardrobe waiting to be worn (Y) YAYYY.

My feelings take 26927292694 years to fade. WAIIIIII?!

2012-01-13T23:14:00.004+08:00

Nooo picture ��

Omg I love this place. Noone judges you and noone cares (Y)

Just got home from my dad's company's cny dinnnnner. Yamsengs and yisangs HAHAHA I'm so fullll. But anyway, school is alright, we've got tonnes of homework coming our way and we have got to start revising everyday :/ the pressureeee!

Heeeehh. Breaking down only makes you stronger :/ haaahah I don't wanna come running back again. I'd be betraying my own instincts but hey, you won't know if you don't try, no? Another way would be to just leave it and let it all fade.

I wonder who ever reads my blog :( it's such a bore!

2012-01-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

Replace replace replace .

Bitch.

I thought it'd be different but I guess not.

Cling man clinggggggg.

Bitch.

2012-01-11T22:25:00.003+08:00

So, how was your day? ;/

Is it wrong to still want it all back? Yes. HAHAH

sometimes life's just sad.

Because noone cares.

2012-01-11T00:04:00.003+08:00

SAY HELLO TO MY LITTLE UKULELE!
My daddy and I had a little jam session just now :Y
so cuteee.

closureeee. why. it's been so longggg. SSSSSSSTOP.
going back would be like. SUICIDE.
Second time's a choice, not a mistake.
surgeon.
haheioooooooooooooooo

2012-01-10T20:13:00.006+08:00

I can be such a weirdo sometimes. But hey, weird people are hard to find so make sure to never let them go kayyyyy. New pair of black studs on the same ear MACAM YESSS (Y)

Ahhh I'm in love with my ukulele! I can play I'm Yours now! fulll song babyyy (Y) yay!
And I'm currently learning how to play The One That Got Away by Katy Perry! The chords are so toughhh omgg my fingers hurt :( There'd be no surprise if I wake up with blisters tomorrow :/

I'm supposed to be doing my addmath tuition homework, but as much as i like doing addmath, i cant seem to bring myself to get up from this chair.hmm.

Feelings will fade. Set your priorities straight, huilynn. go go go go go.

x;
And then i wondeeeeeeer whether you're okay.

2012-01-10T00:01:00.001+08:00

UKULELEEEEEE ❤

I learnt how to play I'm yours by Jason Mraz! Dad helped me :Y funny how he said he used to play the guitar HAHAHAH

Midnight depressions :/

2012-01-09T08:30:00.002+08:00

My second day spent in Bangkok was amazingggg :) the update bout the trip would be coming soon! :)

Anyway, I just realized that i'll never be able to choose. It will never be my choice because everything just revolves around everyone else. Whenever I choose something, it just gets taken away, leaving me with nothing . I mean, whyyyy? It just gets taken away with such a vague explanation . So now, whenever I want something, I'll just let it all go because it's better to have nothing than to be let down with disappointments :/

2012-01-08T08:13:00.002+08:00

Ahhh it's so hard to connect to the wifi here :'( stupid Novotel AHHAAHH I'm currently connected because I'm in one of the hotel's prime area, the breakfast lounge! Yesterday was funnnn :) after checking into the hotel, we headed over to chatuchak to shop! Funny how even on a normal Saturday it can be jam packed with people from all over the world! Got myself some super cheap goodies :Y after that, we went to Siam paragon and got some kao niu ma muang HAHAHA amazingggg stuff :) at night, we went out for dinner with one of my dad's customers. We had some gooood seafood and tomyamkung! Yay :Y Imma update about the trip some other time , full with pictures and all!

Anyway, I really need someone to talk to at the moment :/

2012-01-06T22:51:00.007+08:00

Is it a crime to want to go back in timeeeeeee? :/ I know it's impossible but yeah. Nights like these where I just sit here and think about stuff are just so hard to avoid. I was scrolling through pictures from 2010 and 2011 and i miss them moments like crappp boooohooo.

Omg. Worst thing about today is that I caught a flu. I've always wanted to chop my nose off :Y

Anyway, I've got to be up at 430 in the morning tomorrow :'( flight's around 7 haaaahaaa. I better be off to bed now! I'm currently dying in front of the computer out of fatigue. HAHAHAHA

it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, noone gives a flying hoottt anyway.
Cage it allll up , huilynn, cage it allllll up!
x

Oh and by the way, I take my words back, HAHA it's my fault :/ sorrrry.

2012-01-06T00:23:00.001+08:00

You were right, being friends wouldn't even be an optionnnnn. zuo buu chengggg.

2012-01-05T23:47:00.006+08:00

LIMIN CAME OVEEEEEEEEEEER.
Somehow I like some of my pictures more when they're not rotateddddd.

How dare you say such thing? I feel the same way too but I prefer keeping it to myself :/ Sometimes it's just tough to get through to you. But I'll still apologize no matter what, because I'd rather mend things than to just speak of others behind their backs.

x
The feeling of being replaced is just indescribableeee.

2012-01-04T18:20:00.002+08:00

Hmmm no picture today :(

I don't think I'd be able to update my blog every single day from now on. I made a point to do so during the holidays but now since school has already started, I don't think I'd have the time :P my weekly schedule is packed! Eeyong and I have yet gone for an assesment for the swimming class in shah Alam so we're gonna continue our lessons over at KLGCC for another month :) other than swimming lessons, I'd be attending extra school tuition too :( oh nooo.

but anyway, I am feeling so hungry at the moment omagadddd. I'm waiting for mom to come home so we can go out for dinner! I'm craving for a soft shell crab temaki omgomgomgomg HAHAHA

It doesn't matter much anymore! YESSSSSS

2012-01-03T21:37:00.001+08:00

Why don't you slip into something more comfortable like a coma? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2012-01-03T17:26:00.004+08:00

OSAKA 6!

First day of school!
Orientation kinda sucked HAHAHA What kind of a game was that ?
4 hours of malay this year :'( Oh no!
I'll have to work super hard this year and it's on like donkey kong :Y

Anyway, it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be! My feelings seemed to have evaporated more than expected yayyyyy. I feeel soooo gooooood. All you've got to know is that I'll always be there for you, no matter what. Kaaaaaay.

It doesn't terrify me no more. YESSSSS

x

2012-01-02T21:53:00.004+08:00

Oh my godddddd. School starts tomorrow! I'm excited yet nervous at the same time, but I'm ready! HAHAHA I have no idea what to bring to school since we most probably won't have class. Mmmm. Last day of the holidays today and it's back to 7 in the morning everyday. Damnnn.

Anyway! Went out for steamboat with my cousins just now! My cousin's son is so adorable omgggg I think he likes me :Y He goes around the house going " Gu gu zai na liiiiii?" omagaaaad pinchpinchpinchhh.

Mixed feeelings. Kill me.

x

2012-01-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

Just the thought of hurting someone with or without words is already so self torturing. So tell me, how'd you do it?

2012-01-01T16:37:00.006+08:00

Guess who's back from Pd?! nommmmmms.

Mom :)

HAHAH What is up with the heaaat? :( Last night's countdown was amazing, we lit up pretty lanterns and made wishes. It reminded me of a scene from Tangled, but we didn't have as many lanterns so yeah :P Cousins went around spraying those spider-web-like substances onto everyone oh god. We watched as our neighbor's fireworks light up the sky HAHAHA Tumpang meriah :Y All in all, it was a well spent new year's eve :) I don't know whether I've became darker due to all the sun but it was worth it !

2012, pleaseeeee be a goooood year. I need all the luck I can get.
I just realized that it's not worth it anymore, cause it's all nothing now, right? I'll just be haunted by memories and that's it. mmhmm. I have to stop being negative, positive all the wayyyyyy man. HAHAHA There's always a rainbow after the rain :)

By the way, some photos have just been uploaded into the second last post :Y
Lots of love,x

2011-12-31T13:54:00.007+08:00

Piuuuuupiuuuupiuuuu!

I'm spending the last day of the year hereeee in port dickson :) it's been a long time since I've been here :P and it's been a longer time since I've spent my new year with my mom's relatives. We're staying over at the sime darby tractor bungalow and it is amazinnnng. With a huge field that faces the beach, table tennis, and a barbecue pit, life has never been so goooood HAHA

(I uploaded only two photos because the others were a bit too crazy looking :Y )

Half a day has passed and we've played loads of activities! I would gladly post the photos up now but I can't :( they're all still in the g12 haaahhh the g12 arrived yesterday just in time for the trip :P even if I had photos in the phone, i wouldn't be able to post them up ngekkk. And guess what, my team won! HAHA we had to run a distance while holding balloons up between two heads and also while holding up ping pong balls with chopsticks. We had to peel and eat fruits as fast as possible and count the number of seeds we had HAHAHA the last game was the photo treasure hunt! Which was not bad and also challenging :Y It's currently 1.39pm and everyone's getting restless and they're all taking naps HAHAA

I can't wait for tonight's barbecue and countdown :) yayyyy.

Jeeez. HAHA i really really wanna try getting some of it back but, yeah nothinggg. I don't know whether you know what my intentions are but it's okaaaayyy. It's not like anyone gives two hoots about it anywayyyyy.

I walk down the beach and look at the shells and I think of crabs clawing into your shirt HAHAHAHA. And then I see a huge tree with a tent nearby and I think of that caution sign HAHAHA and maps.

But ah, just forget it hmmmm ?

Gooooooodbye 2011 and helllllllo 2012. 2011 has beeeen a good year HAHA I've had my ups and downs but what's life if it isn't much of a roller coaster ride ?

x, spare my broken English pleaseee heeeheeee. I might update a little bit more laterrrr.

Updateeee; I went on a banana boat ride just now! Yayyyy! New experience :)))))))) funny how all my thoughts just drifted away. We had barbecue lamb which was m'mmm succulent! And now we're playing with cards awaiting for 12oclock to arrive! 2011 has been nice.ohmygod. No regrets and so many new experiences. I'll just have to let go Mmhmm time yo time :( haha anyway, another 2 more hours until 2012! Ain't that scaryyyyy? And am I the only one who constantly checks up on the time you were last seen on an app?! Jeez.

HAPPPPY NEW YEARRRR!

2011-12-30T09:43:00.002+08:00

“@AllAboutTaurus: In a relationship #taurus just apologize from the beginning about constantly building walls. Hey at least you're good at it...”

I found this on twitter omggggg this is so me HAHAHAHAHA

2011-12-29T19:15:00.014+08:00

Funny how I need to wear my specs to get my nerd mode on. HAHAHA

I finally started on my english essssays :) Or maybe just one of it :P I am too lazy to start on the other summmmary piece yuck. Anyway, I headed over to The Gardens to shop with my mommy to search for a new pair of shorts but I couldn't really find any pretty ones soo yeah ;/ Instead, I got two new rings, a new swimsuit, and two books yayyy!
I feel much better today, I mean, nobody really cares how miserable I'm feeling, so I might as well be happy. Forget everything and maintain that ffff word. "Trust Nobody."-2Pac. 2Pac has never been so right!

Don't worrrrry huilynn, it's allll goooooooooood (Y) HAHA. This is me trying to make myself feel better. sigh.
And I'm so sorry. HAHAHA I get mad too, okay? And when I'm mad, I tend to say things that I don't mean :(

Oh and what is up with the weather nowadays? This oppressive heat is killing me. Heeehee anyway I don't think I would be posting for the next three days :P I wouldn't be home! So, Happy New Year everybody :) 2011 has beeeeen amazinnng even though there were definitely some rough times, but yeah we've got to learn from them and have no regrets. New year, new life huh?:/

x

updateee! I just realized that my 2011's new year resolution was a complete failure. To not get butt hurt over silly little things? HAAHHA fail to the max. So yeah I actually spent some time rereading my previous blog posts and boyyy were they depressing to read. See, i told you it wasn't just a few months, it was a wholeee damn year. I was so scared and I had doubts, HAHA that was stupid. Ahh i hate my feelings. HAHAHA die, bitch, dieee!

And to anyone who reads all my posts, I probably sound like a depressed, pathetic loser, but yeah I'm not because I'm just speaking my mind. I know that dwelling on the past can be self defeating but I find myself feeling better after posting about it or maybe I'm just in need of a talking companion :/ hmm.

Anyhow, 2012 is gonna be a good year, i hope! :)

I guess I'll just never know huh ?

2011-12-28T14:13:00.007+08:00

Camwhored with my mommmma's phone in my brothah's roooom.
MY FRINGE IS SO SHORT NOW.
so hard to blowww :(
it keeps getting in my eyesss.
my teeeth look amazingly white here brahhh.

I finally wrote whatever that I was feeling down into my polka dotted boook last night. You wouldn't believe it but i broke down while writing in it. After that, i pulled out an old journal and flipped to the back and I couldn't believe what i read, it was all about you. HAAH from last year. Amazingggg. I broke down even more .
I just realized that I've been posting evvvveryday! kudoss (Y)

Ohh since no one really reads this blog, Imma be posting a few questions that I really wanna ask right now. Where are you? How was your day? Are you mad at me? Mood at the moment? How's life? better? HAHA Can we still talk about anything? Likeee, what's your favourite colour now? HAHA You okayy? You hungry? Cause I'm hungry. HAHAHAHA sorry.
Oh god it just feels like I'm talking to myself HAHA

The more I care, the more I'll be emotionally challenged.
SO, GOODBYE CARING.

x; funny how you think it's all about you.

2011-12-27T23:16:00.003+08:00

You don't believe that it's possible to get those moments back, do you?
I want to believeeee so.
WHY?
cause you're different.

Maybe i was wrong .
HAAAHAHA.
(edited)

2011-12-27T14:02:00.001+08:00

I got my baby back harharharharharhar.

Reality is starting to sink in :'( I won't be able to avoidddddd it as much now.
School is starting. IGCSE is right around the corner. Oh daaaamn.

New Year's resolutions?

To not make promises i know i won't keep. It’s just the start of the year. I shouldn't lie.
Control my emotions.
Study hard and kick assssss in da exams. HAHAHAH
Let everything go. If it's meant to be, it will be.
More fun, less fear.
To be compelled to try even more things.
To not be afraid of simple things anymore.
To forget about limitss, to try to go pass them.
To aim higher.
To be happppppy.

I guess that's good enough! HAHA omg I'm currently listening to an Adele vs. Pink vs. 4 Non Blondes vs. Ben E. King vs. Snow Patrol vs. Lady Gaga vs. Whitney Houston song called Who Knew Someone Like You. It is amaaaaazing. But that stupid Snow Patrol song got me all alighalsihgalisg :'(

"Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. Once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it." What if lost it? It's a whole different story, right?:( stop ittttt.

x

2011-12-26T00:08:00.002+08:00

This was taken quite some time ago heeehe I look so retarded.

I miss my phone. but guess what, I'm getting my baby back tomorrow. ayeee (Y)(Y)

Okay. See I told you this was my getaway place. HAAAAHA.
Christmas is endinggg and every part of me aches because I know I've got no courage to just tap tap tap the phone. Gnokk. I admit that I am very inquisitive by nature and I am soooo so curious at the moment but I can't do anything about it .

Anyway, I just watched MI4! Finally! Even though the show was not as suspenseful as expected, it was still goood. Damn, that sexy BMW i8 whoa. That mission impossible theme song is stuck in my head :( deng deng deng deng.

I need to stop hoping and believing. I just need to stop all that. Stop thinking about perfect moments , nothing. Stop everything. HAHA That's the only way.

HEEEEEEE, I CAN DO IT.
x

2011-12-25T01:15:00.000+08:00

So I was like totally camwhoring in the gym's restroom area waiting for my mom when I realized that this woman was staring at me .aaawwwwkwardddd :Y

Anyway,my blog has recently became a place where i'd just spill out everything that's on my mind. I promised myself that I'd start writing in my pretty juicy journal but I didn't want to pollute it with such depressing thoughts. That explains why the last few posts have been really shitttty. sorry :/ Is it wrong to be thinking about things and breaking down all of a sudden? I mean, I can't help ittttt.

Anywayyyy,
it was Christmas eve and Limin invited me over to her place for a Christmas party HAHA And guess what, it was my very first! And it was cooool :) Even though I didn't bring a present , we still exchanged gifts and I got a pretty little polka dotted notebook and a tiny little candy cane. sooo adorable. What's ironic is that there were words on the cover and it read 'Although time may change so many things, happiness and friendship never change.' I mean, what is uppppp. The present chose me HAHAHAHAHA
To be honest, that's all i really wanted again, that 10 letter F word. HAHAHAHA but i don't know, i just don't know how, i don't know when, i don't know whether and i don't know who. I want answers and I need closure, and I'm too afraid to ask, because I am not so sure whether I want to know the truth.

It's currently 1.40AM,25.12.11 and I am dyinggg in front of the computer out of fatigue because I woke up approximately 17 and a half hours ago. I am going to sleeeeeep soon .
So yeah I miss my phone, and I know it's wrong, but I also miss you. HAAAH. as a friend.Know that.
Merrrrry Christmas :)

x
latest achievement : finished the book Digital Fortress by Dan Brown. HAAAA (Y)

2011-12-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

Maybe it's not me, or you. HAHA it's going to be the memories that kill me. know thaaat.

2011-12-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

i hate my feelings. go awaaaaaaaayy feeeelings gooooo awayyyy.
evaporate. HAHAHA

2011-12-23T20:47:00.001+08:00

SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

2011-12-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

Don't ever get too attached to me, because i'll just become this crazy emotionally unstable bitch. HAHAHA. no joke.
was it all trueeeeeeeeeeee?

2011-12-20T12:09:00.000+08:00

I was boreeedddd.

firefighters,lighters, fingers, blisters, bitter, chicken fingers? Do these words ring a bell?
Mannn I've got to stop rereading posts, depression killlllls. I mean, it's funny how so much can change in a year. Well, you changed me. Sometimes i don't even know what I want anymore. A time machine,maybe? I can't possibly throw it all away :( That fragile illusion of security I managed to construct since a year ago? Destroyed. Bottle everything up. Ahhh I feel patheticccccccc and I need to stop. I want to be able to open up again but the problem is that the only person that I want to open up to is you. Cause it healed me last year.
I was afraid to have it and then I got it and then i lost it and now aaaaaahhh.
Spareee my broken english .
You know why it's so hard to do it? cause it was more than just that few months to me, it was a whole year, more than a year actually :( gggeeeeeeez. I can't say all these in person, because I might as well just drop dead in front of you HAHAHA But you know what, no regrets, none at all and it's alllll gonna be okay cause I'm trying.

But yeah, Another 2 weeks till the holidays are over and I can't wait! I feel like i've been imprisoned at home :( I want to go outtt but now I'm stuck here having piano lessssssons at home. major hate. I need to start on my english essays. Who on earth gives holiday homework?! Aha anyway, I've actually managed to achieve some of my holiday goals!

Get a second piercing! Yeeeeehaaaww.
Started on my English Toefl book.
Finished the Harry Potter series ♥ AVADA KEDAVRAAA
Started swimming lessons with Hoeeeyong! HAHAHA I've got tan lines now nooooo :(
Finished reading 3 books in 3 weeks and now I'm starting to read my fourth! Dan Brownnnnn ! LIKE A BOSS.
I started paintingg :P

And yeah that's about it. But heyyyy, life can be a lose-lose situation sometimes and I've just got to learn how to look at it from the bright side more often.
x

2011-12-05T21:38:00.000+08:00

CHOOOOOOOOOOOOOSE AH YAPS. now :Y this is very important HAHAHA because its gonna be with you :Y if you know what i mean HAHAHAHAHA

2011-11-13T11:43:00.000+08:00

I'm back from the states! Ah it's been a long time since I've blogged! I am reallllly lazy to type out a whole log book for the trip so I shall post ONE picture and a tinyyy little summary for each day ;P

30th October 2011.

This was the second time I've ever touched snow ;P We made our way to Philadelphia that day to attend the NSC.

31st October 2011

It was the first day of the congress and mommmy and I decided to have lunch over at Le Pain Quotiden without dadddy ;P We continued shopping after that .HAHAHA

1st November 2011

I don't have a picture for this day :'( Headed over to the congress for the very first time HAHAHA it was all safety stufff nyeh. We roamed the streets of Philadelphia after that .

2nd November 2011

cuteee hoh! We took a flight back to Nyc and we spent the rest of the day snapping photos and shopping in Time Square. The lighttttts omg <3

3rd November 2011

Headed over to Ripley's Believe It or Not! Super cooool place to visit :P We went and caught a broadway musical at night as well :) Spiderman- Turn Off The Dark. He was flying around the theater like there was no tomorrow :Y HAHAHA

4th November 2011

The day we headed over to Rockefeller Center:) i loveeee the flags and the ice rink over there :) so touristy HAHA We also went up to the fifth avenue to shop. PARADISSSSSE omggg.

5th November 2011

Went to the fifth avenue again for even more shopping. omg I've got to admit that out of all three of us, i was the one that shopped the most :P

6th November 2011

Went over to Boston for a day tour! Sooooo not worth it ;'( But hey i got to rub Mr John Harvard's lucky left foot ;Y

7th November 2011

The last day that i was in NYC :'( I miss that place alreadyyyy. Took the subway over to Soho and did EVEN MORE SHOPPING Haha. Headed back to the Time Square to chill before checking out of the hotel to get to the airport.

Omgggg I'm done! Such a crappy post I know but hehhh I'm too lazy!
x

2011-10-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

How I overcome boredom at school :P
I loooook like a babbbbboooon.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed. -Fix you ♥
AUTOBOTSSS ♥ nomnomnom i have to stop eating.
I'm heading to the Big Apple again :B I can't wait to get a picture with a yellow taxi HAHAHA
x

2011-09-22T21:43:00.000+08:00

Guess what?! I passsed my Grade 8 practical yayyy victory dance! :)) Other than that, September has been such a horrible month :( I want everything back so badly I'd do anything, but i can't. I feel so stupid for not giving a reply. I'm scared :/
x

2011-09-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

I miss confiding in you :(

I've lost the only pair of ears that would listen.

Nooooooooooooo :(

2011-09-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to do ;'(
sweadry hugs :( HAHA
x

2011-09-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

ffinaaaalllly!
i'm sorrrry for theeee super late post !
This post is going to be in point form due to my laziness to write paragraph by paragraph HAHAHA.

I hate my insecurities
I'm not sure whether i've overcome the fear of falling yet
I still crave for that something
I hate to say that it's okay when it's not
I CREATED TWITTER!

http://twitter.com/#!/whatthelynn

new motto of mine "If it's meant to be, it will be."

HAHAHA I'm on my fifth book of Harry Potter ! yayyyyyyy I'm a slow reader whoops.

kthxbaiii,x

2011-06-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

I ammm in lovee with the song For The First Time omg!

Taxi Taxi Taxi in the middle ♥

I need those two thousand two hundred and twenty-two hugs HAHA

I'm a pessimissssst,sorry.

I learnt how to trust again, yay!

I loveeee your cheekiness.

That half smileeee.

I find the weirdest things cute!

I just started reading Harry Potter.fail. HAHAHA

I'm weird!

2011-06-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

yay. I dropped my bloody phone and now I hate myself :'(

I'm gonna need you more than you need me .

2011-06-06T23:43:00.000+08:00

cute leh. HAHAHAHAHA

I feel so accomplished! I'm done with my piano fundamental exam and I went for my very first camp! Paka Camp was awesome,bonds are so much closer,met a lot of new friends,learnt how to kayak, had a really awesome kayak partner, learnt about relative velocity HAHAHA, and I learnt how to appreciate little things in life !

Anyway I'm feeling rather lazy at the moment , so yeah , short post :)

Off to skypeee now heeeehee.

2011-05-23T23:44:00.000+08:00

wow, is this place dead or what? HAHAHA :) I'm sorry about the lack of blogposts ! I have my reasons ,don't worry ;) First off, I got a new phone and it's too sexy HAHAHA. Secondly, I have been spending quite a lot of time at the piano nowadays, Yamaha exam coming up next Monday and I don't think that I am ready for it. LASTLY, I didn't really bother updating :P

So anyway, my brother's coming back tomorrow! I can't wait :) And also, I don't think I would update my blog any time soon after this hehehe maybe after a few weeks or so.

I LOVEEEEEEEEE X .

LOVE LOVE LOVE!

2011-04-30T00:28:00.000+08:00

TRUST. TRUST. TRUST.

2011-04-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

HAHA Exactly what i do while i wait in the fitting room ;P

I'm sorry I've not been updating my blog lately.One of the two reasons why is because my internet has been down for a week. Anddddd it's also because i'm just a lazy ass.
I'm going to give you guys a short list of what has happened lately to reduce the typing HAHA.
Here goes;

I am finally done with my speech about a bloody hummingbird!
Invasion Day! My class's theme was The Joker and I have to admit, we did quite a great job. Even though we had rubbish bags as our vests and we were all caked with makeup and grandma powder, we still owned it! 4 Garnet all the way :P
I am ready to listen to my heart and not the little voices in my head (Y)
I got a fake swallow tattoo on my back which is really adorable.

Hehe so yeah that's about it.Other than that, I am 10 minutes away from turning 15. Isn't that just freaky?! HAHA.

x

2011-04-12T22:25:00.001+08:00

i tend to push the things that i want the most awayyyy.

2011-03-31T22:52:00.000+08:00

oldd picture ;

Mannnn. I can be so stubborn. I tend to focus on the wrongg thing and not on what's right in front of me. I choose the bad from good, I live in denial and I'm really insecure. HEHEHE.

I was craving for something that I never knew existed until not long ago and guess what! I got itttttt.

x

EDIT;VICTORY DANCE. X's MINE.

2011-03-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

This is what i do when i'm left with my dad's phone for a while HAHA. Mannn sometimes i just hate myself for not knowing how to put what i feel into words.

x

2011-03-14T14:08:00.000+08:00

ehehee drew this with the ipad using Adobe Ideas! ;)

x

2011-03-07T19:32:00.001+08:00

so tell me darling,do you wish we'd fall in lovee;
all the time.

x

2011-03-02T19:31:00.000+08:00

cookies and cream. knock knock. half smile . 16 bucks. belated valentine's. Sweadry hug .smiles. butterflies. 2222 hugs. ears in a jar. trampolines. hilltop. stars. sunset. vanilla. forget the world. lie there. two and a half men. silver. vulcan. nova. zombies. cute. adorable. she will be loved. paramore. paramour. knocking on lifts. alert. supper. fish and chips. optimistic. funny. play catch. swim swim. tinyly huge. can dai. awshum. moment. eyes. spiced up days. not lame. sweet. sweaty. not shy. means the world. plastic bag. locker note. when it rains. roti telur. trust. snapping monkeys. beach. NYC. lucky number 7. Rome. parasailing. flying fox. badabingbadaboo. bbcover. hints. orange light. questions. d3. plans. coffee. the fray. you and me.drums!. head over heels. raybans. starts the day. hates the blankets. board shorts. scared. dangled on a thread. pouring rain. it is what it is. hyenas. coming home. tongue tied. adore. melt. uhmmmfhmm. makes my day!

x
Dr.Dre-I Need A Doctor ft.Eminem, Skylar Grey♥

2011-02-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

sunnnnset; fallinngggg♥

x

2011-02-11T22:28:00.001+08:00

IM SO SAD :(

2011-02-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

"When things go wrong, you'll find they usually go on getting worse for some time; but when things once start to go right, they often go on better and better . " ♥ a quote from a card made by the awesome-sttt ,yapliminbabiiiiii :))))

Did you know that I am so grateful to have a friend like you , because not only did you make me a beauuuutiful card , but you also wrote it with all your heart. and hell yeah did that card cheer me up ,it also made my day! heeeheh.But something you should know about me is that I'm bad at expressing myself sometimes, so please pleasssee forgive me :'/ lovvvveeeeeeyoooooooubabi :')

x

2011-02-08T17:58:00.000+08:00

baaaaaad picture HAHA

Should i change my blogskin?! I know I've been saying this quite a few times already but it's becoming a real bore.' hehah that's all ;)

I FEEL SO USELESS _|_

welcome bullshit into your life once in a while ;
x

2011-02-06T15:53:00.001+08:00

This is how i past my time on a normal weekday after school.HAHAHA

It's been long since i last posted anything ,sooooo i guess i shall make this post a tiny bit longer than the usual ,which is just a small paragraph of italic words which have been center aligned :P So okay, I spent my cny back in my dad's hometown.I gambled ,collected only a few red packets , stayed up late to watch continuous episodes of Two and a Half Men, Played Godfinger :P ,and ate A LOT. How else am i supposed to spend my lunar new year, right?

Highlight of the trip?
The trip back home to KL was a bloody 11 hour long journey . why?! Because while my dad was busy over taking some really slow drivers , and he kind of ran over a pothole , which punctured one of his dear tyres. So we stopped by the road side to you know, change the tyre , plus we had a really stupid carjack . After the big hoohaa, my dad realized that another tyre of his was kind of bloated up ,but every car had only one extra tyre , and dad's was no exception. So we drove on at snail pace, reaaaaal slow hoping to see a car shop open, but by the time we reached Benta, The tyre gave way and we had to call for help. Long story short , we went over to a friend's place in Raub and had really late lunch and then we took a ride on a toll truck all the way back to KL. I was squished in between my mom and dad in the front seat , resulting me to have a really bad back and neck ache :'(
What a new year. HAHAHA.

x

2011-01-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

27 minutes till your birthday ,YapLimin! so, I'mma wish you a Happy Advanced Birthday over here! And i hoped you liked your surprise last Friday ;) LOVEYOUUUU BABI! ♥

If I lay here.If I just lay here.Would you lie with me,and just forget the world?
Half-smileeeeees ,
x

2011-01-20T00:17:00.001+08:00

half-smileee :3

2011-01-17T17:41:00.000+08:00

They changed my traffic sign to a brighter yellow;

I WANNA GO WATCH MAROON 5 :'(
You're such an ass.
x

2011-01-14T00:00:00.001+08:00

NOTE TO SELF :LET GO OF THE PAST .

2011-01-12T20:18:00.001+08:00

Words OR actions OR looks won't bring me down today (Y)

x

2011-01-10T19:10:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA BEING MENTALLY RETARDED

Why am i not following my new year resolution?! One week into the new year and I'm getting butt-hurt over silly things and I'm not letting go of the past.
Funnny.

x,
Your Guardian Angel-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

2011-01-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

I'm so pathetic,I didn't wanna be caught off guard,and i might be more than just a little head over heels for you.

2011-01-08T00:42:00.001+08:00

OMG WHORE!

2011-01-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

It is the right and prerogative of every individual to change, or ask for a change. So that's what i did and look where it got me, stranded and frustrated. Me asking for a change didn't mean that i never wanted to stay,just that i decided to grab the opportunity to ask for it, and maybe I have made the wrong decision to ask for a change,but i guess i just have to deal with it later on. If i had the slightest hint of what the consequences would be, i never would have asked for a change .
Nobody can impose their wishes on another person.

__

There are many things that i want to say to you , but i just don't know how.
x

2011-01-03T18:02:00.001+08:00

WORSE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL EVER _|_

2011-01-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

2011!

Something I got off tumblr and might just follow :
My New Year Resolution is ;

I'll start to look on the brighter side of things.
I won't take shit from anyone.
I won't hate myself because of my imperfections.
I'll be more confident.
Bitches can GTFO.
I'll surround myself with the ones who make me laugh.
I won't slack off in school...maybe just a little.
I'll appreciate my parents more.
I won't get butt-hurt over silly little things.
But most importantly,I'll let go of the past.

Lovess,x

2011-01-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

Blogging via iPad right now! Hehehe ;)
Happy 2011 everyone!
it actually kind of scares me how fast a year can pass by in literally a blink of an eye hahahah.
Anyway, my new year resolution would be...
I WOULD BE MORE AWESOME THAN I WAS IN YEAR 2010. HAHAHAH.
Lotsofloveeeeeee,
x

2010-12-29T01:01:00.000+08:00

OMG WTF I BOUGHT ANGRY BIRDS HD FOR MY IPAD .♥

Hehehhhh so today, I went out with Anthea ,her mom and sister to pyramid and we all watched Little Fockers, which is not a bad movie ;) "Why is he swearing at us?!" HAHAHAHA.
thats all!

LOVELOVELOVE,x

2010-12-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA.

I LOVE MY DADDDDY ♥♥♥

LOVELOVELOVE,x

2010-12-26T00:50:00.001+08:00

HAR-DE-HAR-HAR (Y) I guess these would be counted as my Christmas gifts ♥
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY ♥

LOTS OF LOVEEE,x

2010-12-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Anthea, I've got addicted to Tumblr! Click Click and follow ♥ :
http://whatthelynn.tumblr.com/

LOVESSS,x